All my rowdy freinds are coming over tonight

I'm still crazy

Vern Gosdin
Well, I woke up one morning with a note up on my chest
It said I’m gone for good you’re no longer with the best
I never dreamed there’d ever be another made for you
So I just went crazy there was nothing left to do.

I used to be crazy over you
Nobody else could move me like you used to
I had to be out of my mind thinking I’d soon be over you
But I’m still crazy and I’m not over you.

When the bad news finally hit me lord it hurt me to the bone
I was just a fool to think you could be just a little bit gone
But it would be easy it wouldn’t be hard to forget
Little did I know that I hadn’t seen nothing yet.

I used to be crazy over you Nobody else could move me like you used to I had to be out of my mind thinking I’d soon be over you But I’m still crazy and I’m not over you. Oh, I’m still crazy and I’m not over you. Oh, I’m still crazy and I’m not over you. Oh, I’m still crazy and I’m not over you..

Irony

Talk about irony yesterday I got lost in Poe Valley while trying to find Penn's Creek and I drove around for about 45 min. trying to find some place familiar I pulled over in complete frustration and worry and then I saw a cloud of dust and a truck coming towards me. I took a second look and Dagum that truck looked familiar. It was my ex-boyfriend, ironically; I am in stranded in the middle of nowhere and my knight in shining armor arrives and I followed him out of my distress. I guess them former boys are good for something. He always has been my knight in shining or armor. Or just a cowboy in boots.

"What color is the mud?"

Feelin Better

Hank Jr.
Moved on down to sweet home alabama in 1974
I had to get out of music city and I had to get off the road
Woman she left and the people wouldnt let me sing nothing but them old sad songs
Had to get high so I wouldnt cry you know they hit pretty close to home
I'm feelin' better

Now that I'm back on the road
Getting it together
Between Macon and Mussel Shoals

I started turinging up loud
and looking at the crowd and bending them gutiar strings
Knew all the while though it was my style
could they ever forget my name
I rocked them in Raleigh and knocked them out of Knoxville
just couldnt do no wrong
People went wild and the band said child better keep on playing them songs

I'm feelin better
Now that I'm back on the road
Gettin it together
Between Macon and Mussels Shoals

Now my life aint the same and I had to change
and I hope this music will show
A little bit less of crying in the beer and little of my own soul
Waylon and Toy and all them boys
I wanna say thanks to you your fiddle and your steele make me play what I feel
and I dont feel love sick blues
and I'm feelin better
I got hurt but I'm back on the road
Gettin it together between Macon and Mussel Shoals

All came together in my sweet alabama home
and I'm through forever of trying to put everybody on
I'm feelin better
Now that I'm back on the road
Getting it together
had to eat little cornbread
Yea been eatin that cornbread
sleeping on a feather bed
drinking that home grown
writing some new songs
Feelin better

Just when I thought I was alright

Its funny how you think that you've finally gotten over someone and then it all floods back.
Its funny how you think your parents finally know you and then they break what little heart you have left.
Its funny how the more you seek for happiness the more trouble you find.
Its funny how you realize on this earth there is no such thing as a peace of mind.

I've been struggling with alot of things since my jr. year in High School and no one has ever been there for me. Maybe One Friend but even that one friend has let me down in my life. I don't know what to do, where to go or how to change it but I do know I can live long like this. People seem to think I have no feelings and that I have "welcome" written on my forehead. I put on an act to everyone and only a few people have ever seen the real me. If I don't put on an act I would have my heart broken all the time because underneath I'm actually very sensitive. But what does it matter the act isn't working I still have a broken heart.

Maybe I'm the ones whos crazy

Hank Jr.
Any more it ain't no big deal
to being used just to get what you want
try to get ahead and then you stab em in the back
people getting used like a stepping stone

Maybe I'm the one who's crazy
but my heart still knows right from wrong
If playing by the rules doesn't matter anymore
then I've completely lost my mind
The way the world is going lately
Maybe I'm the one who's crazy

Seems these days they don't need a reason
to walk away and just give up on love
when times get hard that's the easy way out
if someone else gets hurt that's tough
But I'm still a believer in whats meant to last forever

Maybe I'm the ones who's crazy
but my heart still knows right from wrong
if playing by the rules doesn't matter anymore
then I've completely lost my mind
the way the world is going lately maybe
yea the way the world is going lately
Maybe I'm the one who's crazy

Up on the Ridge

Last night State College had the privilege of hosting what was in my book, one of the greatest
bluegrass concerts I have ever been to, and believe me I have been to many concerts in my life. Dierks Bently and the Traveling McCourys played at the State Theatre. Del McCoury, a legend in bluegrass music, has done at least one bluegrass song on every album that Dierks has released, that is what inspired his "Up on the Ridge Tour." Different from Dierks regular touring set list, he did his classic hits like "Free and Easy down the road I go," "What was I thinkin," and "Come a little Closer" but all bluegrass and acoustic style. He also performed the bluegrass version of George Strait's "All my exs live in Texas" and the theme song from "Smokey and the bandit," "East bound and Down." The band consisted of drums, up-right base, Steele guitar, acoustic guitar, fiddle, Dobro, mandolin and of course banjo. I couldn't keep my boots from stomping. Between the boot tapping beat and the lethal pickin' it was the greatest show I have ever seen. His vocal was dead on and the sound was perfect for an acoustic bluegrass show. If you missed this Ladies and Gentleman I am truly sorry.

So maybe you think the same I do but as you go through your life you seem to have a desire to find somone to make you "complete", I 've never needed anyone, I've always been a very independant person and I almost feel awkward and scared when somone comes on strong to me but latley I've been wandering if I wont spend my life alone because of the strong personality I have. I guess you reap what you sow.

Dum dum da dum

Miranda Lambert, the great country artist that brought us hits like "White Liar" "Gunpowder and Lead" and "Famous in a small town" is engaged to marry Blake Shelton a fellow country singer. Its kind of like a Johnny Cash and June Carter thing. I just hope her new path increases the quality of her music and not hinder. There seems to be a reoccurring pattern through country music that when an artist begins their career single and through their career finds a soul mate their music usually suffers, however I have faith her next album will be as good as the past three.

Road Trip!!!!!!!!!

I'm planning on going on several trips this summer so I can stay far away from this place as much as possible

June 12-19- SENIOR WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
June 20-28-Hunting camp in New York
July 5-19- Montana and Wyoming
July ?-?- Tennessee

And then come August I am moving to Tennessee so I can be as far away from here as possible, permanently.

Dumb rabbit

So last year I got a small Californian rabbit in hopes to show it at the 4-H fair along with my dairy beef. But one day during feeding it jumped out of the cage. My dad chased it up behind the barn and through the yard and down the lane with a cloths basket trying to catch the ornery thing. But with no luck, we never caught it.

Sunday I came home from work and low and behold the stupid animal was casually laying in my yard, now the size of a small dog because of the wild vegetation it had been munching on for the past year. I ran around my house and charged up the hill determined to catch it. Of course it out ran me. Tame rabbits go wild in three days. Its like a slap in the face. Seeing it sit there chubby cheeks full of grass. Its coat whiter then snow and its black nose wiggling. It still sits in my yard, mocking me. Laughing at its escape and the fact that I will never catch it.
Its a reminder of the one that got away.

My revelation

So I've been doing some thinking, and I've come to the much anticipated conclusion that I am going to Tennessee. I have not been accepted there yet, I am still waiting on the news but I am going down there in the fall. If I don't get accepted then I am still planning to move there and try to apply again for the spring semester. I will probably get a job and work until I start school. I was driving home from Wal-Mart the other night and it hit me like a freight train. (I have tendencies to have revelations driving on back roads(back roads column) I was listening to a solid country song and a little voice came into my head and said "Hello Valerie! Why wouldn't you go to Tennessee?" And just like that all pros and cons of Wyoming and Tennessee went away and the obvious answer was Tennessee. So, confidently and firm in my decision, I am going to Tennessee, because its simply right where I need to be.